On quasi-Christianity things

Felt frustrated today at Bible study because they asked if we had "ever been in a situation where we turned away from God, despite his promises, because of someone's (or yourself's) disbelief?" Just like the Israelites going to Canaan and not believing in God (Num 13-14, I think).

And then people offered up situations where they were certain of their path in life and then other people laughed or shook their heads, etc.
Uhhhh how does that make any logical sense? That's normal. Even that happens to people who aren't Christian. So how is it different?
It seems to me more that it's looking at what exactly are God's promises to us before asking that question. Otherwise we might as well just be a self-help group for personal issues.
It's more like a let's-be-open! scenario that only tangentially relates.

Or spiritual warfare.... I have a lot of uncertainty on this issue.
T- shared his story about spiritual warfare about the enemy putting thoughts of doubt and lack of self-worth before he was going on a health care trip.
Is it spiritual warfare, or just general anxiety?
Even non-Christians go through doubt and lack of self-worth.
So why do we call it spiritual warfare when Christians go through it?

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At the end of the day, there should be a difference that sets us apart as children of God. Whether it's a peace, or joy through suffering, or our attitudes towards certain things, the reason behind our actions, or whatever, there should be something.
So when I don't see any difference at all, I am skeptical.

>.<

Cooking to-do list

I like to-do lists. They organize things.

After my test,


Cooking to-do list:

1. gumbo with okra
2. chicken pot pie w/ pie crust cookies
3. quiche ina crock pot
4. mapo tofu

or maybe just canned soup.... (the lazy way out)

Preceptorship

My preceptor is a plastic surgeon!!!

Maybe he'll be super cool and I'll end up wanting to do plastics. :O

Not what I expected, but I'm excited ^^

CMDA

Christian Medical & Dental Association.

Went to their Bible study on... er? Tuesday. Ah yes, my days are blurring together.

Went through Hebrews.
As HCC had that Sunday school on it, I didn't really learn anything "new". But it was good, really good. Solid stuff there.

I liked the community, but in the end, it was a Bible study - not a fellowship.

But people stuck around and talked afterwards. But there was no time designated for personal interaction and questions of how is your spiritual life? how are you? no really, how are you? 

Maybe my expectations are skewed from CCF, but I'm still hoping to find something vaguely similar.

But it was good. I will probably go again next week.

Still on the search, God leading.

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Sleep is a luxury I can always afford. Except I always choose not to. I am like a peasant scrabbling for the scraps. Subsisting on snatches of twenty-winks and guilty moments where I can't stand being awake anymore. It's crazy that I've already gotten to this point only one month in. I haven't yet succumbed to coffee.... but it's tempting. Very tempting.

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Riddle me this:
Do you love what you do?

Pancakes

Assuming 3 pancakes per meal, and given 3 meals a day, I have about 18 pancakes I need to eat.

Humility

Humility. Let me practice this.
Patience. Let me find strength in those moments.


It's too easy for me to be critical of other people's mistakes, especially when it affects me.
It's like that psychology terminology that states that you believe that your mistakes comes from your situation, but other people's mistakes come from inherent personality problems.
"I tripped over the rock because the stupid rock was hidden and never should have been there."
"You tripped over the rock because you're clumsy. Silly person."