Considerations

I killed a cockroach today. Yuck.

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Balance.
Is it worth it if you experience happiness and sadness in equal measures?

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God.
I saw a patient who has such a rare brain disease, and the physicians caused iatrogenic pan hypo pit. He was a high functioning pilot with a pregnant wife and three children. He now can't recognize his 6 mo daughter because it's been that long since he's been in the hospital.
Their room is decorated with crosses and Bible verses and photos of his children.
She told us, sometimes he responds. I asked him, do you love me. And he nodded. And then I asked, do you love the Lord?
And he said, yes, and it's important to the Lord that I love him.

Faith. Where do people find such faith?
Is faith found? Is it cultivated. Or is it borne from something else.

There once were seeds that were thrown.
Some fell along the path, and the birds came and ate it up. 5 Some fell on rocky places, where it did not have much soil. It sprang up quickly, because the soil was shallow. 6 But when the sun came up, the plants were scorched, and they withered because they had no root. 7 Other seed fell among thorns, which grew up and choked the plants. 8 Still other seed fell on good soil, where it produced a crop—a hundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown. 9

Or is faith all about the environment, and nothing to do with the seed? Are the seeds not all from the same stock? Where upon is the difference?
And then, if so, then who chooses the environment? Is it our decision or is it not within our control.

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Fear of the future.

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Guard your heart.
Guard your heart.