indecison

the worst place to be in.

i waffle between "omg, i do love this; this is what i ought to be doing!"
and also "no. I can't do this. It sucks."

I like a lot of surgery. I like the OR. I like stitching. I like trauma. I like doing procedures.

I hate the hours. I hate the standing (my feet hurt right now ugh). I kinda sorta don't like the people.

ughhhh