Extra thoughts

1. Sleepover
- girls night. felt almost like college all over again.
- random costco run just for macaroons. ridiculous. kinda fun.
- did a craft. i think it turned out well. i miss acrylics. i really, really, really want my acrylic box that's in dallas. i want my brushes. i want all of the art things back at home. (and on that note, i would really like a sewing box, and a scrapbook box, and a crochet box. i also want a glass cutter kit, a tool kit, a few power tools, and a sewing machine. lol. i mean, while i'm still dreaming, i would also like a full size keyboard with a pedal.)
- life stories. i am..... blown away by how different everyone's life is. and the struggles that people have. i think i have fairly mundane life.
- it is an extremely comfortable environment, to be honest. i barely know half these people, and i already know what this kind of vibe is like. i know how the conversations sorta oughta go. i know the progression of the night, i know the type of things we talk about, i know the songs, i know the words. it's like walking on well-worn trails of the past. haven't i already done this at least 4 times? once every single year for ccf, a girl sleep over with questions and sharing and food.

2. Faith
Everything of the sleepover felt familiar.
Except this: faith here is so much stronger because everyone here fights against time to make it to these things. because faith after college is a chosen thing, is a self-motivated thing.

and I feel so in between.

I am spending too much time waffling on important questions and things.

3. game night
- gah. i can't believe this happened the same freaking day. not enough emotional energy. i didn't expect it to go through, but it ended up being at my place, so of course i'll host.
- it was actually good. a small group. a few more life stories. a few games. i dunno. a getting to know you part.

5. decisions
- to choose the path of the straight and narrow requires a steadfast heart

6. picnic
- lovely pavilion. adorable dogs. the most beautiful wicker basket. delicious brie, cranberry chipotle sauce, turkey, apple slices sandwich. salami. brownie brittles. macaroons. chips and salsa. cake and cookies. potato salad. fruit salad. just ugh. so full. so good.
- quietness. the problem of big groups that don't know each other well.  the art of socializing......